Stupid Emotions

Today I cried. Not just a tear, but cried.

We had gone to dinner last night with some of our closest friends and she cried and then said I was a rock and I never cry. During this whole process I have tried not to focus on what we are leaving behind but the great adventure that is ahead for our family and all the things we will experience and hopes we have.

So in between Realtor appointments, work emails, a messy house and packing, I watched the new Mormon Messages with Stephanie Nielson. I could feel the emotions coming but was doing a pretty good job at being a "rock" until the phone rang halfway through. My sweet neighbor was calling to say that her daughter, whom I adore and is getting married, could use our old dinning room table - YEAH! But then she started saying how much she will miss us and the emotions started coming. I stayed strong on the phone but once I had gone back to finishing the Mormon Message, I was a wreck. I cried through the rest, I cried and cried during Elder Hollands comments. I walked through my house and cried. Cried for the memories we have had here, cried because I am leaving dear, sweet friends who take such good care of us, cried because I am pretty much unwilling to take any picture off the wall (because that makes the moving seem really real) and cried because I know that as of Sunday, my life will not be the same ever again. I had a similar experience when I was engaged and look how well that turned. So, life will go on. I will be okay. I am just afraid there are going to be a lot more tears over the next few days. So if you see me, please be patient and kind and at some point hopefully I will be a "rock" again.